This is me. I was about 15 standing in my grandmothers living room. I hated getting my picture taken, I hated attention. I am now 42 and I look at this younger picture of myself and I don't know this girl. This girl was dog paddling hard. She was trying to get to the next job, trying to figure out what she was going to do with her life. She was scared to death because nothing made sense. I still have nightmares that I am by myself and I am in this mindset. I am helpless. I am halfway through yoga teacher training and I learned so much about myself. I am letting go. I have no interest in planning my future. I am a life long learner and plan to ride that wave for the next 40 years. As I type this I am wedged between two of my dogs and no amount of money could compare to this. I am finally happy.